​This is a new start.

What is this place?

It seems I’ve been away for some time,

only now returning

Home.

The last time I remember

remembering a time it was May

16th,

Five Thirty Six PM.

Two Thousand and Twenty.

and someone died.

Four pull-ups today

a week ago only three

two months back it’s strength I lacked

going unnoticed this man

the man of me.

Strength is not an action

I’ve discovered

it’s an action when fighting dissolve.

It is just bone giving way

to the age I’m living today

my heart, however is larger than before

pushing that door further down the hall

at the age I’m living today.

I’m grateful for my wife and grateful for my life

so fortunate to be living today.

​“I listen to the wind

To the wind of my soul

Where I’ll end up well I think

Only God really knows

I’ve sat upon the setting sun

But never, never, never, never

I never wanted water once

No, never, never, never

I listen to my words but

They fall far below

I let my music take me where

My heart wants to go

I swam upon the devil’s lake

but never, never, never, never

I’ll never make the same mistake

No, never, never, never.”

Cat Stevens - The Wind… a perfect song.

Do nothing

And problems

Have a way

Of working themselves out.

My father passed away. It has not hit me yet.

Life takes its punches.

We determin if they have any effect but some sort of outcome

Effect is something happening

Affect is what happens to you because of it.

I’ve been affected by my fathers death,

but my only response is what I can effect.

When thinking about this, I fear I’m missing an important part an important element of being a good human.

I would ask this kind of question to my father

In one of our many talks we would have for hours about life.

Now I just talk about it to an unresponsive page of digital paper.

It affects me deeply.

I hope I was a good son.

“We determin who we are but what we do.”

“I’m barely here.”

“This is better than anything else out there.”

If you are going to win

win this way!

Cubs… win.

November 2nd, 2016

Movies will be made of this game

for years to come.

We were alive to see, my love

you and me

“Do or do not, there is no try.”

“Do or do not, there is no try.”

​Everything is now at zero.

What good then.

“Every man got the right the choose the way he dies.”

Do you want the answer,

or do you just want the question?

You can’t have someone rob you of your happiness.

No one is worth it

“Birds got a job, shit’s got a job, seed’s got a job.”

No one has the right to call themselves an artist.

“It ain’t suppose to be you.”

“Thunder only happens when it’s raining.”

What is it about Monday’s

taking every bit of ones’ effort and courage to simply

move

forward until the joints give in and ones arches

relax

setting the pace for the race.

What is is about Mondays not being the

issue on Tuesdays? Not being like any other day.

You are home though so all of this silliness needs to end

What I really wanted to say was…

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

I

love

you.

Once in awhile, just when we have it all under control

and everything is in its rightful place

if you would for me just this once, for me

look inside the person you want to be

and ask yourself what was the rush,

This life, my love, this life…

is not a race.

I don’t like starting anything with I,

but there is no other way to say this,

I’m sorry.

Don’t die.

“Your never wrong to do the right thing.”

“When a carpenter picks up his saw, if wood could talk… it would scream.”

- All The Way

Nodding the head does not row the boat. - Irish Proverb

​Yes I want cake

​“you have so much courage in life when it’s done it’s spent”

You need to add fiction to make is less real.

Bored. Who has the time.

Five bites.

God helps

I give my thoughts too much credit.

Before you block out your humanity…

​Evil Suits

Not what you think it means

​I was asked to run a relay with a friend,

They said they needed a ringer,

When we placed ourselves on the track

they stepped off the track to be the singer.

Though music is such a wonderful thing,

to help you through the race,

When a friend agrees to hold up their end

unfortunate when it’s in your face

Cake Pop

Money’s money.

The person who’s says “it can’t be done” should not interrupt the person who is doing it”.

Sometimes it’s the tea pots time.

My Kusmi can get the scarf.

Coco in Uoob Pool.

But my love for you, unexpectedly, arrived on time.

You are a warrior.

You are my wife.

I am forever grateful

for you.

“Some things in life are predetermined.”

I love when you do nothing.

Coco buttery lips.

“Everyone wants to remember a 70’s they may or may not have had.”

Music walked me through my childhood

“You better let somebody love you before it’s

too late.”

The Eagles, The Jackson Five, Ziggy Stardust… RIP 2016

If you understand this, if you lived it then you know

are no words

to describe

what it is like

to grow up

then.

I miss the innocence of it all.

Coco Nibbledy Bits

​Slightly pink.

It is exhausting resting.

It’s a new year so why not do something about this body.

So I joined a health club.

After several attempts to find a time to meet a trainer,

postponement seemed to be the only alternative.

Somehow I feel physically better about myself.

The good news is…

I practically worked out.

“Honestly, match the font for the love of Pete.”

I won the lottery last night.

The jackpot was over $500 million.

Today, all day, I’ve avoided checking the winning numbers.

Until I do, I believe, I am a winner.

It’s a circus.

You are my organic peach?

“Everything was going to change today.”

Said the Redwood Tree to the sticky fog.

“What?”

And yet.

Flip your fritter.

I can’t wait to try your brownie.

What gets your fire started?

Twenty Sixteen.

If your addiction is deep breathing you are in good shape.

Eat around the honey wave.

I’m going to stop writing about food and eating it.

But I’m not going to stop thinking about it!

Many bags look alike.

Mountains are everywhere.

Arc-tic.

​I’ve never had a bite of her bundt.

It’s a puzzle.

Who did the nest.

Are your ready, the last piece?

Nice.

It’s hard to take it apart.

Look at this little tip.

Three cubes.

It’s almost done.

​The bottom is strong

Make it strong.

That’s an interesting shape

You gotta push.

Something with everything.

A runaway beater.

​So, I was standing in line at Chipotle with Cam…

​What’s the rush.

Keep the front door clear.

“Competing needs.”

As it was explained to me

conflicted with my own agenda

so I respectfully declined to be amendable.

In the end, we all want the same thing

to be relevant in this life

to someone, something, somewhere…

our lives are like these words about to be erased

permanence is not an option for anyone. It never has been.

It’s seven dollars more for buffing

Treats

Big Black Balloon

Have you ever noticed, when you attempt to create something new

the establishment of “what is” spends so much effort to

warn you

block you

tell you in their bleak, broken words

by their distructive actions

that you are completely

and entirely

alone

in believing it can be better

or maybe something completely different than it is,

how it is

why it is

when you know how you can make it better

than just OK

you can help to make it

noteworthy

by simply caring more, by simply caring more, by simply caring more.

I once thought these people were my enemies

and I treated them as such returning their rocks

with heavier rocks

dressed as profit,

addressing their resistance with completion & triumph.

And still, nothing changes, even in the face of abundance

and good fortune they stand resilient using silence as their response, crossed armed

and crossed.

My wife sent me a quote late last night from New York

(not the quote, it’s from where she sent it)

“If you want something you never had,

you have to do something you’ve never done.”

These words lay on top an image of a person with a backpack

standing on the edge of a cliff looking out over still waters

a mile down

with mountains miles away and stormed clouds overhead.

Alone.

The fact is, as unsettling as it may be, we are alone

if we believe in something others wish to ignore

and pretend

does not exist,

because they have become so comfortable in the way it is.

I read these words again to myself…

“If you want something you never had,

you have to do something you’ve never done.”

Faced down, my own reflection showing my age in the still water of my own wet mud

for the first time in my life

I will do something completely new

completely uncomfortable

and at the very extreme of the existence of who I am

Today

I will, in the face of all resistance from those who stand angry

stones in hand

sweating from the efforts of hate

I will for the first time in my life

not become…

defensive.

“I only want to do what I want to do.”

Constantly, artist get in their own way

breaking thin ice below their feet as they walk

further forward without noticing

the land behind them crumbling.

Constantly, they fail to hear

someone from shore yelling to them

“I’m here!”

Mildly using.

She said, immune to the gravity of it all.

I’m smell’n what you’re sell’n.

Why is it, when having a bad day

those around you like to point it out?

Do they honestly believe you are unaware?

It is only in this instance, the phrase…

“Don’t kill the messenger.” should be questioned.

People don’t leave their families

on Sunday night,

they leave them on Monday morning.

​Isle or Window?

“Coco is lean and muffin is juicy!”

Call dad.

100 minute meeting.

We are creating for the One.

Tomorrow, when our car comes please remind me

to say goodbye.

Red Tail Hawks

Tree trunks!

If you are not paying the bills

it is not your place

to have an opinion about the cost of things.

Unless, of course, you are made to feel obliged,

because guilt is super pricey

The least amount of damage,

the most amount of destruction.

The least amount of tragedy,

the most amount of razed.